Pressure is hard to withstand..

Bleh.. I'm so lost in my thoughts.. Like I'm really at a loss for words which really is rare..


Let me think... I've had lots of fun events this week and the last (and I'm planning to post it up but it may take a while cuz I'm in Saitama right now.. and the pics are on my home-pc so..) but that's not what I want to talk about.. These days I just feel like I have all these things to do but no time to accomplish my tasks.. I feel like an working ant, always in a hurry to get from one place to another and bring in resources for the rest of the crew... Like I feel like I'm just sliding through life and not really taking the moment to appreciate the miracles around me. I feel like I'm never really living my live, I feel like I'm just making it through the days and not leaving any profit... And this feeling really sucks... It's not that I'm setting priorities and just being lazy and dumping them on the side of nowhere.. It's that I set so many things to do for myself that I just can't do them all.. and I can't just pick up where I've left off.. I wonder if this is how Bruce (Almighty) felt... like I feel like I'm living the present for the future and yet dragging remnants from the past like a toilet tissue stuck on the heel of your shoe... I think and still have nothing on my mind.. it's confusing and weird.. idk.. I feel like God's telling me to do something and yet I'm not opening my mind enough to comprehend my task...


Hmmm... Maybe my time in Saitama is here to let my mind rest.. To let me breathe and take a minute to sort my thoughts and goals.. These days I've been listening to J-ROCK and it's so weird.. I'm into AQUA TIMEZ right now, I've already bought their new album - I reserved it online before it even came out.. LOL. They're so awesome.


Oh and hey! I have a Jin Wan in Japan.. LOL. Sir Ushijima.. He REALLY smiles JUST like that Jin Wan except Sir Ushijima is A LOT funnier and nicer and smarter! He's WAY cool! I'll try to get a pic of him as well as the 'HOTT' Elder Zarbuck. He's probably more of Vianki's type. The 'sexy' Caucasian who forgets to smile sometimes LOL. I heard this story but it's just so funny! Like when he's not doing anything (like talking to a friend or something) then he doesn't smile when his eyes meet someone else's so like he writes 'SMILE' on his hand with a pen to remind him to smile :D LOL. You can tell that he's not a cheap goof-around type..

Moving on to other important subjects.. Well, these days it's getting tiring for me to write blogs.. as you can tell LOL, I haven't been posting too much... IRDK I think I'm sleeping too much or doing other non-important things too much.. These days I don't even have things that I want to write about.. Hmmm... OH I got an e-mail from Eun Ji..... She sent me a pic of us before I left Saipan.. or wait.. before SHE left Saipan. It was a pic from my birthday. LOL. Jae Hee's birthday present was on the pic (the yummy chocolate box) and like the wrapping ribbon around my neck LOL, yah~ the good times :D

Now that I read over my blog.. I think I started off talking about the pressure being hard to withstand.. Well.. it HAS been 3 days since I trailed off to do something else... I think I'll end this post and start another one about today. Okie... that's what I'll do.