水曜in川越

Today I really didn't do much, I woke up and watched my mom leave for the hospital for a check up.. Then I just like fell asleep again.. I woke up around 12 or 1 and wasted my time until my mom came back.. Turns out, she has some type of rock in her belly... I'm not sure what it is but the doc told her that it's a small one so it may disappear with time or get bigger.. depends on her periods.. She seemed really sad about it even though she was joking around about it.. I can tell.. She's cut open her stomach once already, she really doesn't want to go through that painful experience again. I think she's gone through enough so I hope that surgery can be avoided..

Afterwards we like ate lunch which was Curry Pilaf and Lettuce soup with Shrimp Dango and Mochi-Kinchaku. It was good, like all the dishes my mom makes. Then we went golfing - it was more like she golfed while I read a book, rocked out to my music, and regret the choice I made in buying a hot milk tea that tasted quite funkay~>P I did hit some but my blank being ①year and also the fact that even in class I wasn't that great... well.. the outcome of my shots are pretty predictable.. OF COURSE it went horrible.. Like my mom was struggling not to laugh at me.. T^T And that's how far I'm gonna ellaborate on that topic.

After a quick stop back home, we walked over to Shimachu to buy some clothes. LIKE I NEED ANY MORE!!! ....... Well, I do, not only am I a monster called LADY who never has an end to cravings for clothes, but I also didn't bring much to Kawagoe... This is all I brought:

-wallet**********-underwears
-mirror********* -cell phone
-lip gloss ********-① PJ pants
-① sweater ***** -①jean shorts
-①tank top:***** -①thin long sleeve
-①down jacket**: -①t-shirt
-sketch book ****:-reflection notebook
-contact lense case and water
-color pencils and regular sketching pencils
-book of Mormon (for further study, though I forgot the tag with the recommended scriptures..)

So uhh yah.. We definitely needed to go shopping, and for my sake(!) I did not plan this.. I just thought that it would carry me through the week and if it didn't I thought that I'd be able to borrow my mom's clothes.. But unfortunately, my mom and my taste in clothes were quite different (besides the type of house wear we use.. Like the jersy pants and stuff..) so therefore we had to go to Shimachu so that we can go out more. I insisted in making it through the week with the many items I brought, but she wouldn't listen. But thanks to her, I bought ③ new clothes. A shirt-one piece (it sound weird but it's really cute, we wear a tank top and short pants and use the shirt-one piece as a jacket); blue jeans that makes your legs look nice even in boots (cuz your legs look ugly and thick when you tuck in the jeans and wear boots over it); and a long sleeve and a mini-frilly skirt one piece. And my mom bought lots of her own clothes like skinny jeans and like tight one pieces and like turtle-necks. And we're planning to head back again during the week, I'm not even sure if I'd be able to bring them all back to Tokyo... - -;;

Right now, as I type away, I'm listening to music and debating if I should move onto the next activity of the night.. Reading the scriptures or working on the mental games or oneo reading some other books... OR watching CSI: Miami2... Hmmm hard topics... I must ponder on it some more...

Anyways it's almost 1AM here. So I'll be heading out.

G'night everyone. Love ya all♡

Pressure is hard to withstand..

Bleh.. I'm so lost in my thoughts.. Like I'm really at a loss for words which really is rare..


Let me think... I've had lots of fun events this week and the last (and I'm planning to post it up but it may take a while cuz I'm in Saitama right now.. and the pics are on my home-pc so..) but that's not what I want to talk about.. These days I just feel like I have all these things to do but no time to accomplish my tasks.. I feel like an working ant, always in a hurry to get from one place to another and bring in resources for the rest of the crew... Like I feel like I'm just sliding through life and not really taking the moment to appreciate the miracles around me. I feel like I'm never really living my live, I feel like I'm just making it through the days and not leaving any profit... And this feeling really sucks... It's not that I'm setting priorities and just being lazy and dumping them on the side of nowhere.. It's that I set so many things to do for myself that I just can't do them all.. and I can't just pick up where I've left off.. I wonder if this is how Bruce (Almighty) felt... like I feel like I'm living the present for the future and yet dragging remnants from the past like a toilet tissue stuck on the heel of your shoe... I think and still have nothing on my mind.. it's confusing and weird.. idk.. I feel like God's telling me to do something and yet I'm not opening my mind enough to comprehend my task...


Hmmm... Maybe my time in Saitama is here to let my mind rest.. To let me breathe and take a minute to sort my thoughts and goals.. These days I've been listening to J-ROCK and it's so weird.. I'm into AQUA TIMEZ right now, I've already bought their new album - I reserved it online before it even came out.. LOL. They're so awesome.


Oh and hey! I have a Jin Wan in Japan.. LOL. Sir Ushijima.. He REALLY smiles JUST like that Jin Wan except Sir Ushijima is A LOT funnier and nicer and smarter! He's WAY cool! I'll try to get a pic of him as well as the 'HOTT' Elder Zarbuck. He's probably more of Vianki's type. The 'sexy' Caucasian who forgets to smile sometimes LOL. I heard this story but it's just so funny! Like when he's not doing anything (like talking to a friend or something) then he doesn't smile when his eyes meet someone else's so like he writes 'SMILE' on his hand with a pen to remind him to smile :D LOL. You can tell that he's not a cheap goof-around type..

Moving on to other important subjects.. Well, these days it's getting tiring for me to write blogs.. as you can tell LOL, I haven't been posting too much... IRDK I think I'm sleeping too much or doing other non-important things too much.. These days I don't even have things that I want to write about.. Hmmm... OH I got an e-mail from Eun Ji..... She sent me a pic of us before I left Saipan.. or wait.. before SHE left Saipan. It was a pic from my birthday. LOL. Jae Hee's birthday present was on the pic (the yummy chocolate box) and like the wrapping ribbon around my neck LOL, yah~ the good times :D

Now that I read over my blog.. I think I started off talking about the pressure being hard to withstand.. Well.. it HAS been 3 days since I trailed off to do something else... I think I'll end this post and start another one about today. Okie... that's what I'll do.

Talking to my best friend Suks.+*

So I met Suelki-chan online. And as soon as I came online she blinked me :) And we talked about SOOOO many things but something that I thought would NEVER happen, happened...

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She adviced me on how to make a man yours. LOL. But I'm not joking.. She was saying that she's too strong and no guys come around and I said that all the good guys are taken when I meet them.. And she was telling me what Jae Hee said which was:
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"Just because they have a goal keeper doesn't mean you can't score"

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I was like 'YAH! I heard that tooo from Jae Hee's mouth when I was still on island!!' And we went on to talking about this hott guy at TDG and Suelki goes "I learned from my experience... act expensive. Then they will love you look at ○○○○"

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.... - -;; Uhmmm but I want him to like for who I am....

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Suelki shot me down... she said "hey man.. you need skills now-a-days just to go for a guy.. (mentally picks up a reality gun and aims....) ..with just true love your gonna end up like me.. SKILLs BABY. SKILLS.. (POW! With that, I get SHOT down to reality... and I start to ponder if I really must skill up... and as i ponder.. she goes in for the kill) ..Honesty isn't everything as you said. Flirty but never give everything.. you know?" Urrggg... (R.I.P. ayaka's heart...)

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LOL... And then she revives me by saying "Hey but good luck >_< "

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"I know you can so score you

have the look.." (_ _ΙΙΙ){…。]
".. personality.." ∑(。・_・。)
"and the body SEXY~" (_ _ΙΙΙΙ){no Suelki, I have the boobs.. not the body...]

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"EXACTLY that's my point. At school we did some comparing..we cannot win! I am so getting that estrogen GUM" (I summerized the convo a little to make the post a little bit more compact)

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... Ok.. when did this convo turn into a boob talk... That used to only occur between Mina and me... Oh speaking of Mina.. Sorry guys back home for making a fuss that our boobs grew.. According to Suks, she hated it when we had that boob growing talk.. so.. I apologize. And I'm planning to send Suelki a special present from Japan... Like Suelki said, yay~ the technology. And maybe one for Vianka too. heheh +ﾟヾ(´∀｀*)ﾉﾞ｡+

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We also talked about Psycho Pedro.. and byontae people (two in particular LOL.) I had lots of laughs tonight, as well as Suelki's honest hits about many things... Hahah. Thanks Suelki~ Love you muchos!!!

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Let me end this post off with a pic that I drew few days ago 3 in the morning. I was just gonna draw a lady who was in my head but she ended up with black flares..

Miya-chan in Peacock hair style
みーちゃんピーコックスタイル+ﾟヾ(´∀｀*)ﾉﾞｷｬｯｷｬ｡+

♥♥♥赤西仁♥♥♥
☆超エロカワ☆

*：。Happy Birthday。：*

So it was Kana and my dad's birthday today. Kana's turning ⑨and my dad's turning ④⑤.. Yup.. time flies by doesn't it? I can't believe that it's already 5 months since I left that beautiful tiny island Saipan.
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Well since I couldn't celebrate my dad's birthday and take pics of it -plus he claims that once people are 45, birthdays aren't something to celebrate.. wtf.. I'll celebrate mine til I die!!! heheh)- I decided to take pics of Kana's birthday.
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The difference was astonishing... For starters... well.. the cake is DAMN small.. ・°・(ノД｀)・°・ I'm so used to the big cakes back home - the one that takes 3 days to finish and I end up taking it to NMA for all to finish.. Ahh.. yes I remember my pinoy bright colored princess cake I got from Marie last March.. LOL that gave some laughs hahah. Well going back to my original topic, yes.. the size. And second, the taste... it's soooo effing good!!! Like I took a bite and I was like WTF is this!?＼(゜□゜)／ And this is what that cake looks like:

Doesn't it look so very yummy~~~~~???

There's the birthday girl in the middle with a sour face painted on; and there on either sides... are her crazy funny parents not giving a SHIT about the delicious looking cake in front of them... Am I the only one that thinks that the cake looks good!?

Yay~ the cake's lit up~ thanks to Hi-kun's lighter and Kana's random placing of the candles... xD We sing the usual birthday song, my grandma was singing it Japanese-English style until I jumped in.. She started singing the 'I know how to pronounce English words' version. LOL.

And she smiles as she wishes upon the candles...

And she blows it out like there's no tomorrow!!!!

I totally forgot to take a pic of my slice... it looked sooo good that it made me fall into temptation in a second - -;; It had fillings inside. It had like chocolate, cream, Kuri, and others. Very delicious♥♥♥♥♥

Then after everyone left, I called my dad and wished him a good night's sleep because he was going to bed by the time I called. LOL.

Well, that was today. I gotta run to the store and get Kana a Wii game.. damn... WHAT DO I WORK FOR!? (T△T)

Oh, p.s. Phillip!! My korean teddy-bear! I did what I promised you! I went around at 5am!!! Jotna dark mann~ you never know... I might have been raped you know!? Ehh, I joke; I'm strong enough to defend myself :D But I forgot to take pictures... it was DAMN dark anyways..

Well, that's it for now xD

xxxxxLetting some steam out.

Smoking is bad for you... Therefore I am anti-smokers, especially because I grew up with both my parents smoking.....

How can anyone kiss someone that smokes!? When I got my hair done, the person who did my hair went for a smoke break while the machine warmed my head... and when he came back I could smell it from his fingers... Smoking makes the men look bad... Like attractive people look... DULL.

But that's just my opinion... and speaking of smoking... well... these days the news I get from back 'home' is just so irritating... Like... It's not my fault that Luis started smoking.. It's not my fault that we don't communicate anymore.. AND it's not my place to say anything if we're not even friends. Like it takes two to be friends, TWO, not only me.

And I'm sure he has his own reasons but please, even IF we were still friends, he has to want to stop. Even if I said anything, he won't stop until he himself have the feeling to quit.

I'm happy to know that a lot people care about his health but why tell me? Why hurt me by asking me? Why make me irritated? Why reassure me that when I get off the island, I'm powerless?

I'm not asking people to seal their feelings.. Cuz I love to hear your experiences and stuff.. and I'd love to help if you have a concern or want an opinion... but don't come to me to tell me to help someone other than yourself. How can I help someone that doesn't want my help?

I don't know the boundry anymore. I don't even want to think about it.

Sorry for the negative post... It's really not like me to be so confused and frustrated.. ugh.. whatever...

I'm gonna go chat now.

For Ayaka Lovers<3

Wow, I quit writing for a few days and I get comments telling me to write more!! Can't I get any rest!? LOL, just playing ;) So sorry that I haven't been updating this... I got a little lazy.. I was gonna update it through my cell but it would take forever because we have about 50 characters on 12 buttons (- д -;;

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Anyways.. well.. where should I start... Hmmm... OH first things first :D I changed my look~ I got curls v(≧▽≦)v So now I look like this ↓

In my grandma's car the day I got em' curls☆

This was me before I got me some curly-curls..

And then, on Friday the 2nd, my mom and I met for a little birthday dinner. It's my mom's birthday on the 10th but I have work that day so I decided to have it a week earlier. We went to Yakimaru (where I work on weekends) and spent like 4 hours talking and chowing some mean Yakiniku. It's damn delicious!! I totally forgot to take a pic of some of my fav. foods but I did take a pic of my mom and Yakimaru's Kanban-musume, Miya-cyan☆

It costed me quite a bit but hey, it's my mom's birthday.. Plus I couldn't do anything for her last 5 birthdays so I owe her lots of love and fun :D It was like $140 but that's why I work. I work to make myself happy and have money to rule my stomach v(>_<)v

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Work's like super hard these days... the owner likes to take the best out of the money he pays me so I have like three orders that I have to make at one time and stuff.. He bitches at me when I can't do it well but hey, work's not easy but the pay's worth it right? Heheh.

Oh so I've been looking for the right church in Tokyo, preferably somewhere close to where I live. And idk if I mentioned anything about this but there's a Mormon Church like 15 min from where I live... I hear lots of rumors about the Mormon Church so I thought that I should check it out for myself rather than basing my decision on rumors so I've been talking to some of the elders and some of the sisters there. I went to my first Church session on Sunday (although I missed the first session and ended up joining the Bible study and Women Gathering thing... I couldn't wake up at 8am to get ready LOL). Made lots of friends and learned some stuff about the book of Mormon.. I'm not going to make my decision yet.. I set up a learning session with Sister Hamatake and Sister Kovalenko tomorrow to see if that Church can help me grow. I told them that it's not going to be an easy session. I'm probably going to have lots of questions and have lots of debates.. hope they don't hate me for it LOL. We had a little debate yesterday when I joined Sister Hamatake and Sister Kovalenko for lunch/cookie making time :) Sister Hamatake and I love baking so we set up a lunch/cookie baking session for Monday after Sunday program LOL. And here's a pic of Sister Hamatake and the mad delicious Peanut Butter and Chocolate Chip cookie we made↓

Sister Hamatake's 1/4 Japanese ( ´艸｀)
These are MAD delicious!! I swear they're soooo yummy~
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Those two was taken at 洗足池 (Senzoku-Ike), can you see the leaves changing color??? I think the pic below is better.. mhm :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:

This guy in the middle is veeerrry into his mood... You can't really see it here but he's sitting like those guys in a typical romantic movie LOL. 一人でスカしてんじゃねぇ～やぃ！ヽ(`Д´)ノ www
The home made Croissant at Volks. My grandma, Kana, and I dined here before heading to Jasco for shopping. They just looked so perfect with their egg coating that I stole a shot before they went into the oven for the climax (≧ｍ≦)

I wasn't gonna buy anything at Jasco... at first... but then I felt a calling while I was walking through the Electronics section and I was sucked towards a clothing stores where I found... BOOTS!!! When I was in Saipan I thought buying boots was just a damn big waste of money... BUT once Autumn hit, it's too cold to be roaming around in sneakers and heels... so..... uhhh... >ㅂ< I bought both black and brown.. Aren't they so LOVELY!?
Look at the cute black ribbons on my neck of my boots >ㅂ<
It has a green lace as an inner layer so I can fold it over like the pics and it has a leather ribbon on the back to keep the folds in place♥♥♥

So I think that concludes what I've been doing the past few days.. I hope it satisfies Jae Hee and Taylor and all the others who check this... LOL

ん～これ全部日本語に訳すのはちょぃメンドイから～スーパーショートに：

お母さんと焼肉食いに行きやした。バイトしてて良かったっす♥

Mormon教会行ってきました。水曜に色々探検行ってきやす。
Sister 浜竹と Sister コヴァレンコとクッキー作っちゃいました♥
激ウマっす+ﾟヾ(´∀｀*)ﾉﾞｷｬｯｷｬ｡+

ジャスコでブーツ買っちゃいました。ギザカワユスっす。

以上、電車男風に省略しました。

ENJOY!!!!!!